Tuesday, October 29, 2013

Collision On Ice

First and for most I would like to extend my sincere thanks to B-j Shue Chapman and Justin Manager at the RDV Ice Den for there help and assistance and call 911 and EMT as I suffered a *head injury* on the ice yesterday.  I have to say that it was the most painful and scariest thing that has ever happen to me.  I am a tough cookie on the ice but this was definitely and ER situation.

I ask myself this question a million times WHY? Why me?  This is not fair....:(  I trained so hard for it to end this way!!!  

What I was told from witnesses, it happen so fast all was a fog really.  Session had barely started and I went and put down my water bottle by the boards and I took my cd out of my case and went across to the music box and placed my CD.  As I was stepping out I was barely gliding forward while putting on my gloves, and what I do remember I glanced and saw Justin walking along the bleachers and waved hello, and BAM!! it happen, a skater, skating *backwards* collided with me!!. the back of her head hit the back of my head!!! I fell and my head it the ice DOUBLE WHAMMY!!!.  I lost consciousness and was out for a while motionless.  As I came to.. was escorted off the ice and I began to get sick, started vomiting and feeling faint.  I felt like my head was going to explode from the pain and the shock of the impact!!!

I was rushed to the ER and waited to be taken care of, had a CT done and results were clear, no swelling or fluids in my brain....Thank the Lord!!! Was sent home the same night, was on a 24 watch "head injury with no wake up".

Now, have to rest and more rest- it will take time and everyone is telling me "ice will always be there" this is so true, however, this is a devastating situation and a complete setback for me and my skating, I have a test on Sunday and now I have to scratch???....but I will way it out til Saturday and I will make a decision.

UPDATE Oct 30th:  I made my decision and I am not going ahead with the *Test* this Sunday, its for the best and my head is not doing what it should and its way to soon after injury.   I have to think of my health and recovery is most important for me and my family.

I want to say this "to all my family and friends, thank you so much for ALL you prayers and thoughts, there is a special place in my heart for all of you" 
I love you all dearly !!

Friday, October 25, 2013

Count Down to Test Day

Test Day!!
Going to test my bronze free skate and I can't believe that its one week away and I am feeling; nervous and anxious. I've been working so hard all summer trying to get all my elements and jumps to passing level.  

Trying to stay positive and confident though I trust myself and my skating, sometimes my nerves gets the best of me....I've competed for 7 1/2 years, its a different feeling when it comes to testing.  Heart is beating 300 miles a minute, mouth is so dry, everything around you is a blank....and somehow have to stay poised and graceful....while your legs feel like jello...oh yeah and have 4 judges starring at you every step of the program and to think that its over so quickly lol

I am so thankful to all my skating peeps for being so encouraging and supportive.  But some how I feel deep down - I don't want to let anyone down  like my family and friends...if I don't pass - its a thought that is lingering in my mind.  I will not write anything negative about any of my jumps or spins....keeping positive and will go out there with no expectations.

I will be skating my free skating program to music 1.50 min and will have required elements and jumps...though I have to show good flow and technical performance though not mastered.  You are allowed 2 re-skate element.

Here is the breakdown
Required jumps: Toe loop, Salcow, 1 single jump (skating a loop jump)
Combination jump: Waltz/toe loop jump
Required Spins (3 rev): Back Spin and Sit Spin
Connecting moves throughout

All and all I will go out there and skate with my heart and fight for each jump and spin(s) with conviction and no matter what, there will always be another chance.  
Hoping for the best!!