Its been a crazy two months with work and my health issues, it seems that I had to put off my skating for a while. Yes, I've sneaked in a practice and lessons or two but its not enough to really work on what I am lacking. I have goals for the next couple of months, but now it am thinking and debating.
I know some of you have felt this way, and hope you can relate to my concerns. Feeling discouraged at the moment, because I am trying so hard to work my elements to passing level and its just seems that when I gain progress on one element I loose on the other - for example; I finally got my sit pin to a decent level and lost my back spin - working on my flip jump and now my loop is a hit or miss. Its frustrating, for me right now because 1. I need new skates and blades, my blades are shot and my boots are broken down 2. I need some kind of motivation to get me going again. 3. August test session is a NO, since I will be traveling to Burbank with my daughter so the only time to test will be in November (again)!!.
I am seriously thinking about not competing anymore and going to give this one last TEST a try and if all goes well okay then, if not? then I will have to re-evaluate. Its just hard to see some of my adults skating friends progress at a faster pace than I which makes it harder for me to understand the "how"
*Frustration* finding it harder to heal from injury and longer to grasp an element....my ultimate goal is to land my axel this year but that is diminishing since I am only 3/4s rotated and the injury and falls are just killing me. Passing ISI FS5 in inevitable at this point. ISI Adult Champs my not happen since I am traveling to CA with coaching fees and expenses $$$ will break my bank.
I don't want to give up on myself....skating is my life but at what cost. This upcoming season will determine my fate for 2015 Adult Nationals. I don't want to get my hopes up, because the let down is way more difficult to handle. Will try hard to make time to skate and move forward but I am going in with no expectations. I am open for any advice and encouragements!!
Happy Skating